i have wondered how does one know one is in love?by what certainty do u know that this feeling is one to last, that the happiness u get from someone's company will not be transmuted to irritation or worse indifference with time?? does everyone feel sad when it goes wrong? how do u recognise it for love that it is n not some other feeling? what if all the heartburn, the sorrow u fell will only make u laugh at how stupid u were then, softly giggling away when u think abt them alone in the night? or will u feel slightly hurt n lost everytime u think of what was not? does everyone feel slightly embarrassed abt this feeling? do u second judge urself when u think abt someone n the way he makes u feel? do u feel ashamed for ur ill thoughts for everyone moment he is not with u? do u see everything he says n does with a different eye, constantly reading a new meaning n spending hours working out what it means? do u laugh too when u hear songs which seem aimed at this weird emotion u r feeling? do u also feel like crying at times, just going n sitting somewhere quiet to cry because it seems it will never work out n u cannot imagine what will u do, though u know that u will survive this too, only it seems that everything will be slow n painful after this, for nothing will ever attain the perfection this promised, that is lost now..that all that will be ur future will sad n insipid, spent in remembrance of this loss..i wonder too..when will it be over??
9 years ago
